March 2009

Why I know everything is going to be just beautiful…

by Leonie Dawson on March 31, 2009

There’s everything in this photo, and more.

My love, who is going to be the most beautiful dadda I’ve ever known.

My nephew, whose soul is so precious and divine that all I want to do is love and nurture and celebrate him for every single one of his days.

Art and nature and home…

and most of all…

love.

Everything is going to be beautiful.

And it already is.

Creative Goddess Sunday

by Leonie Dawson on March 29, 2009

Hola gorgeous Goddesses!

It’s that day again! Creative Goddess Sunday! Today’s the day I share with you a couple of the creative delights I’ve been making, and you can share yours.

Let the magic happen…

A few weeks ago I was feeling like I wanted to try something new. My two favourite Piscean girls were having birthdays so I decided to make them both a crystal necklace with some of their favourite totems on them.

I meditated as I created them, choosing what magic and energy I wanted to weave into it, picturing how they would feel when they wore it. They are filled with special symbols & crystals & magic for them.

And then I was so beaming with new creative energies that I created a brand for them – Enchanted Horsey designs – and photographed them with my Goddess HomeGirl, Quan Yin. Hee hee! :)

Melissa’s Soul Story

And then the lovely Melissa ordered a Deluxe Soul Story custom art to celebrate all the beauty, magnificence and wisdom inside and around her. Gosh that girl is loved! I just adored making this piece with her in all her favourite colours of rainbow jewels & peacock plumes.

In her words

I got the most beautiful email from Melissa when she received it…
*happy, happy sigh*

My beautiful, special, amazing painting has arrived and I just want to hold it and tell myself those things over and over again until I believe that they are true. Thank you for hearing my words and seeing me as I hope to be. I’m not ready to hang my Soul Story yet, I like to be able to have it in whichever room I am in for the time being.
- Melissa

I just adore that. So very, very much.

Passing the creative talking stick

So that’s me, gorgeous creative goddesses!
What’s been boiling in your creative pot lately?

Paint smears & angel hugs,

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Healing Goddess: Creating my own Self-Healing Retreat

by Leonie Dawson on March 27, 2009


On my West Mountain, early morning. Photo by Sone.

Hola gorgeous Goddesses!

Last week, I took off a week from work. I’ve been exhausted from crazy busy-ness in my business over the last few months, and I’d reached that yuck-yuck-yuck place of burnout. I’ve been feeling emotionally drawn it and physically bombed – like I didn’t have any juice left. I’d just finished the Creative Goddess eCourse, I knew I had to make as a space for me to retreat and heal and come back into a cave for a while.

Taking this last week off to rest, heal, recuperate, and return home to myself has been kinda necessary. I had extra leave at work so I could take a week off – even if I couldn’t get a week off, I would have either taken a couple of days of holidays or designated a whole weekend as a retreat. Just knowing that I had this time to drop the ball for a while has been really, really good. I’d been ignoring what I needed for a few months and holding my ball so so tight, and it was starting to hurt. It was time to listen, to have some space to do nothing and be nothing – to just listen and give to myself and my own sweet soul.

Preparing for my retreat

I chose not to go away anywhere for my retreat. I didn’t want to travel, I didn’t need to be anywhere else. I just needed to come home to me. I needed a safe place for me to do that. I needed to get dive-bomb-licked by the puppies, to walk outside in my garden and make herbal potions from it, and to have my love come home to me everyday. So the retreat centre I so deeply needed was right here – my home.

Before my week off, I cleaned up my studio to make it zennishly clean – I cleared out the parts that made me feel overwhelmed. Packed away a lot of things. Cleared out the section of my bookcase that I use as a messy, chaotic To Do list. Put down a beanbag by the window. And it feels really beautiful. My studio – and my bed – became my retreat epicentres.

I didn’t have expectations of my retreat. Just for it to be space. To listen. And breathe. And do whatever I felt like in that moment.

What my retreat ended up looking like

Every morning, I lolled in bed reading every morning for an hour or two. I watched as much or as little tv as I want. I wrote when I wanted to write. I let myself feel whatever came up – shittiness, anger, pain, joy, or sometimes – a little boat of floating gently along. I made healing herbal poultices for myself in the afternoon. Sometimes I meditated. Sometimes I couldn’t be assed. I did nothing much, and everything I wanted. The main focus became this: No Obligation. No Have Tos. No Shoulds. Just Being.

About half way through the retreat, I woke up with a little feeling of hope inside me. Like a tiny little trickle of my juice had come back. I’m felt so very, very glad for that. And I just stayed in that place of Where-I’m-At without pushing or pulling away from it. I wasn’t trying to feel better – and I’m still not. I’m just sitting with the pain, exhaustion and overwhelmness when it comes up. Feeling it, and asking it what it needs. And finding my way home to myself.

So that’s been my retreat. Perfect in a What-Leonie-Needs-Now kind of way.

F U N

I heart some fun time. To finish out my retreat, my dear friend Sone came to visit. (Who, incidentally, has finally heeded my pleas & created her own design company – Scooter Girl Designs. Mother-of-the-Goddess she’s amazing. Hire her before she gets booked out!) My love adores her, Charlie is in besotted soulmate love with her, and she met our darling Angel. (Angel says HIIIII! everyone. She just came in, licked my toes, inspected my keyboard, shredded some collage paper from one of my boxes, then miandered back out. hee hee!)

We ended up doing what we do best. Having miracles and adventures and fun times and silliness and gentleness. Hello mass beading sessions, painting our year’s vision, being stalked by purple dancing lepracauns, magically ending up at an equinox festival, eating cupcakes & raw food delights, being absconded by drunk witches, accidentally ending up in a flute meditation with a shaman, visiting beautiful bookstores, playing in the tunnels of a stone kids castle, singing and dancing on a mass stage to each other, cuddling puppies, making spontaneous visits to our friend’s farm, sitting in the tipi, playing with a tribe of horsies, having the kettle on constant boil for our tea, silly Wii competitions, pulling oracle cards and, as always, just being, talking, sharing, giggling, adventuring, loving. Just the five of us. Me, Sone, Chrissy, Charlie, Angel. It’s all so very, very good. The perfect healing blend of FUN ever.

Continuing the Retreat

So now I want to take that feeling of retreat with me into my everyday life. I do it in small ways – I listen to meditation tapes most days. I take steps quietly and gently. I say no to stuff. I watch how much energy I’ve got, and decide really carefully how much I want to give out. I wear the beads me & Sone made together. I wear a shawl cause I kinda feel monk-ish in a shawl.

And I give myself what I need.

And I think that’s the big one. That’s all I needed to do.

Give myself what I need.

And this weekend?

This weekend is going to be a blast. Because our darling Sone decided one weekend wasn’t enough, and is coming back for Round Two. And the icing on the cupcake is this: My amma-mama is coming. My two favourite Taureans will meet at last! And some time with my mama will be just divine. It’s time to be held.

Passing the Talking Stick

As always, feel free to hold the talking stick and share in the Comments Circle. You can share about your journey, or answer any of these:

What do you need to give yourself?
Can you create a space of retreat for you?
How many stars are there in the sky?
If you were going to make a big basket of your favourite things to take with you on your retreat, what would you take?

Big love, retreats & kindness,

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