Changes afoot in Goddess land

by Leonie Dawson on November 27, 2009

Hey beauty beauties,

A couple of months ago, I realised something that kinda scared me. The soft, wide truth that:

I needed to change something in my sacred business, or quit it once baby mermaid entered the world.

For the last five years, my business has been a good and beautiful vehicle that’s helped me share my big dream with the world… through art, a book, workshops, retreats, meditation, kits, e-courses and Goddess School. All of it was just a way of helping women see that thing inside them that I so believe in… that we are wise, joyful, creative, powerful goddesses that can create our own beautiful lives.

It’s something I believe in so much, and so deeply, that I get tears in my eyes when I think about it. It blooms inside me so strong and so vivid, that I know it’s not really from me – it’s a knowing that comes through me from some profound place in the universe… maybe Mount Olympus, or Avalon, or the place-under-the-sea. I just know it is absolutely the truth. The truth that we are all beautiful, rich, rare, brave and wise. The truth that we can all heal. That no matter what happens, we can be joyful. The truth that we were born to be ourselves.

But I’m getting off topic…

My point is… this sacred business of mine has just been a vehicle to help as many women who wanted it to remember what a Goddess they are.

It’s been my passion for over five years, and my primary focus for the last two especially.

And as my belly grows fuller, I know the time is coming when I can no longer on my own give my business absolutely everything it needs to do its own sacred work in the world.

Once baby mermaid comes, I need to devote myself to her, and to my own initiation into Mamahood.

So I have been sitting with this truth for a couple of moons, and seeing what I needed to do from here.

And it all became beautiful and clear, once I rested and gave myself some time.

Story-time

Three years ago, Great Spirit told me I needed to create a retreat. Even though I’d never run one before – and hilariously enough – never even attended one before. I just knew, deep in my soul, that this is what needed to happen, and that I would be shown the way to doing it. I believed I would be given whatever wisdom, strength, energy and inspiration I needed to make it happen.

And it did work out that way. One long weekend in March, nine goddesses gathered on a farm just south of here. We slept in a sweet cottage with a fire oven. We woke up in the early morning to walk to the top of a hill and meditated as the sun rose. We ate radiantly raw foods. We built a labyrinth in the bush, feeling the energy spirits guide us to places of power, dance, joy and transformation on the land. We travelled deeply through meditation, art, ritual and dance. We gave each other healings. We took on medicine names. We had potent, powerful sacred circles in a tipi. We drummed and sung around a fire under the starlight. A whole world opened up in that gathering.

And I was right in my intuition – I was given all I needed to run that retreat. From the moment the retreat began until the time we held our last circle, a strong, powerful presence I called Sun Bear came to me and guided me. She was strong and ancient and wise, and whenever I needed strength, wisdom or guidance, she would whisper in my ear what I needed to know. Even when transformation rocked the energy of the circle, Sun Bear held it strong. She knew what it was that was needed.

And the other gift I was given at that retreat – the other thing I needed for it to be run – became very apparent, very quickly.

A few years before, I had met a goddess sister and dear friend Sone. We met online, and I intuitively knew to do something a little bit wild and crazy (even by my own standards). When the time came for me to have my own inner-marriage ceremony, I invited her to be my Goddess of Honour at my ceremony and stay the weekend at the Cottage of Joy and Love. The moment she turned up on my front lawn, we looked at each other and thought “I know you! You are here again! We are going to be friends always.” And so it was. Our souls recognised something in each other as being friends, and companions for the journey.

Us the first day we met…

As a Taurean goddess, she is the polar opposite of my Scorpio-ness on the astrological wheel. We balance each other out, and when our singing bowls are rung together, the tones sing true. As the years unfolded, we would talk about how we wished we were back in Avalon, as Goddess Priestesses and sisters, collecting herbs, walking the sacred lands, helping other women find the goddess inside them.

And in every circle at the retreat, either at my side, or directly across from me, was my dear friend, sending me waves of love and support, and holding the space with me. Without me saying a word, we dropped into a familiar, easy pattern together of sharing this sacred women’s work together. She would appear to gently remind me when we needed to move the energy onto the next thing. She would watch where the other goddesses where at, and intuitively know how to help them heal and open. She would take one look at me and know exactly where I was at and what I needed. She used her intuition, earthiness and goddess spirit to give the retreat and the circle whatever it needed. She was my right-hand Goddess sister – and we laughed with delight at how our dreams of being Avalonian goddesses sharing women’s sacred work had become true.

And on a healing, personal space for me… not only did Sone support the retreat, and my role in leading these precious women – she supported me, not just as a goddess – but also as a girl who was doing her big work and finding it in some moments overwhelming and challenging. She’d stroke my hair, hold me when I needed to release tears, and remind me what I needed to know.

In the years of our friendship we have witnessed, supported and honoured each other on our journeys… when we met, we were still working out what we wanted to be and how we wanted to share with the world. She’s been with me on every step of my own transformation and growth into my self – from starting a business, to going to India, to getting engaged, to running retreats and starting Goddess School, and becoming pregnant.. And I’ve been so crazy proud and happy as she has fallen in love, gotten married to her soulmate, made huge leaps of faith, quit jobs to follow dreams, move here to Canberra, and become a NIA dance teacher, reiki healer, circle leader and intuitive tarot reader.

That, and we both happen to be in love with intense, loyal and gorgeous Scorpio men, and we both rescued dogs from the pound named Charlie. (My dog Charlie1 also happens to believe Sone is his soulmate from another life. The way he looks at her is just too besotted for words! hee hee hee)

So where this is all leading to…

I had a beautiful reading to gain some clarity around what I needed to do with my sacred business a couple of moons ago. And the gorgeous Tanishka said to me:

You need to give yourself some space to become a mother. You need to find a way you can keep sharing your gifts with the world while you are immersed in looking into the eyes of your daughter. There is someone you already now, someone who is very close to you, who can help you with it. You know who it is, don’t you?

And I did. The image of Sone sprang to my mind as the woman I could trust with helping spread this magical, potent, healing goodness with more goddesses. I decided to sit with it for a while longer, to see if it was the right way to journey.

And at the same time, Sone was getting readings and going to retreats, and saying to me:

I don’t know WHY, but the number 2 keeps coming up for me! That my soul purpose will be in partnership with someone else, but I don’t know who yet or how it’s even going to work out!

And I would giggle, and scratch at my hand because I’m really not a good secret keeper, and wait for the right moment to come up.

And it did.

As of the New Year…

I’m sure you already know what is happening… as the answer is pretty clear, no?

Goddess Sone will be joining the good ship Goddess Guidebook to help keep it sailing beautifully. She’ll be taking over running Goddess School, answering all the goddess support emails and making sure all our goddesses are taken care of.

And we’re really excited… as we’re in the midst of creating the next Goddess School e-course together!

I really wanted to combine our superpowers… Goddess Sone’s gifts as an earthy Taurean healer and qualified NIA dance teacher with mine as a watery Scorpio transformation goddess and Goddess Guide – so the next e-course will be the Radiant Goddess e-course: a 21 day mind, body and spirit plan including nutrition, movement, meditation and soulful goddess tasks… the perfect way to begin a new year with rejuvenation & revitalisation & radiance!

At this stage, Term 2 of Goddess School will be beginning January 17. We’ll be opening for enrolments next week.

I’m really, really excited for this newest blooming… and know having Sone a part of this will be such a deep gift to me, and all our goddesses.

What this means for you?

All good things, I think! Goddess School will be able to continue even when I’m on maternity leave. Goddess Sone knows my courses and teachings inside out, and already lives them. She’s deeply intuitive, healing, encouraging and courageous and will bring her own special energy. She’ll be taking over the running of the Goddess School online circles so our course goddesses will come to know and love her like I do. I’ll still be a part of the circles as I can, but Sone will be the main energy rudder behind it all :)

What else?

I have a pile of projects, kits, ideas, e-books and meditations bursting to come out. And I usually try to space them out, but as I enter third trimester soon, and summer (which is my prime season of creation), I’m going to be just following my heart, energy and spirit… and release them all as they want to come out. And I really, really don’t want it to be overwhelming for anyone… I’m just going to trust that it’s a good thing to be getting them out now before I have to enter mama-cave completely.

Also – at some point, I will probably stop offering Goddess Guidance sessions one-on-one. I will book only a few more for December, so if you’re hankering for one, get in now. I’m really not sure if I will have time from January onwards to continue doing them regularly. My head is still wrapping around that idea, actually. Woah, overwhelming!

Deep exhale….

Thank you so much for being here… for being the Goddess you are… and being a part of this special place. For me – this isn’t a business or a website, it’s a way of life… and a temple for women to come to find the amazing goddess inside them. That’s what all of this is for… and I’m so grateful to be doing this work again in this life.

Questions, concerns, thoughts, ideas, big dreams…? If you have any, please just let me know hon. Mi goddess ship es su goddess ship. And please welcome the precious Goddess Sone aboard :)

Big, big, big sky-coloured love,