1. Some moments I am filled with grace and faith and trust. Other moments I am sad sad sad, feeling like there is a Justin-shaped hole in the world.
2. You know what be awesome? If they could update Facebook from heaven. Can we start a Facebook group for that? And we all LIKE the dinger out of it?
How good would it be to get status updates from the rainbow side? Photos uploaded? A chat here or there? I’d even be down with hearing about their latest FarmVille escapades, ya know.
Surely it shouldn’t be that hard. Heaven must have wifi. They probably have ADSL3, the lucky buggers. Riding around on unicorns with gleaming white iPads.
We just need the Heaven-Earth connectivity app and we’d be right.
Who’s with me?
3. Having said that, I have been using Heaven-Earth dial-up (aka intuition) and I know he’s happy and that my brother is taking care of him. Thanks big bro! You are the bestest!
I also know that there’s more messages to come in time, and things will get a little clearer but for now, I’m keeping my heart filled with what I do know.
4. I also know I will forget again and lose my faith and that will be okay. I also also know that I’ll keep finding that faith and grace again, no matter how many times I lose it, because it’s all around me. It’s what is really true.
5. Three days until we move. Oh my goddess grace. I’m going home to the place I belong. I need it and it needs me. I’ve got grand plans and small plans. Plans of vegetable patches and a new timber fence. Plans of friends visiting. Plans of creating a retreat. Plans of finding the owners of the acreages at Crystalbrook Retreat. Plans of doing lightwork at the sacred places, and opening up some energy vortexes there. I was talking to my lovely friend Akiah the other day – and we had exactly the same places in mind that have vortexes!
And I know vortexes is a strange sci-fi kinda word. I don’t know what other word to use though. It’s when it feels like there is a big swirl of energy coming out of the ground. Have you ever felt that? What do you call them?
6. Which reminds me of the first retreat I ran. We were looking for a place to make a labyrinth at Ingelara Retreat, and all the goddesses headed off on their own into the bush to find the right spot. And every single one of them found a special place that had such different earth energy. There was one spot that made you giggle with joy, another spot that felt like it had very old ceremonial energy, another spot that made you feel like you were flying like an eagle. It was one of the most amazing afternoons I’ve ever experienced!
We ended up creating the labyrinth beneath an old mama tree. It felt very safe and healing.
7. The crystal labyrinth I created at Crystalbrook Retreat is next to a riverbed. My big sister found the energy centre for it. She likes to pretend sometimes that she’s not psychic, but THE SECRET IS OUT PEOPLE! She’s actually one of the most gifted seers I know.
8. Yes, I’m one of those pushy younger sister types. Hee!
9. Are you ready for photos and video tsunami from tropical paradise?
10. Last week I had a dream about what my Next Big Thing will be. And it is totally nutty but I am absolutely certain of it, right in my very soul of soul. I have a clear vision of it – so I know that’s what I need to do. I glow when I think about it. I’ll be opening it up as soon as we are settled in Proserpine and I can make sure I can take care of everyone properly. Glowing. Like a beacon. Thrilled. In the very bestest of ways. I think you might really, really love this.
11. Starry is asleep beside me as I type this on my little iTouch. My love is next to her, reading a book on writing. I am truly blessed. Thank you Great Spirit.
12. Wherever we go, we leave magic chunks and love glitter in our trail…
13. There’s life in all of this. In all its splendidness. In the grief and the gladness. In the loss and in the gift. In creating and dreaming. In energy spaces and family. All of it. May I give thanks…
And most importantly, thank you for YOU. This goddess tribe? It’s the dearest circle of teachers, sisters, kindred spirits, muses and friends I could ever ask for.
Thank you for always reminding me of my wings.
Thank you for always showing me yours.
Love,
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awesome post dear goddess
am looking forward to The Next Big Thing : )
love lots xo
You sound so clear and true as always… I love the ideas and plans you have, and the retreats especially are very interesting to me. I use the word vortex too. i know what you mean… Much lvoe to you and you’re adorable lovable family.
This sounds wonderful! I am feeling very lost and blue at the moment – wondering what I am doing with my life at the moment and your letter seemed to re-awaken that spark in me – so thank you for sharing! By the way, I think some of my sister goddesses should check out Te Wahi Ora in NZ (it is on the Web). It is a soul-healing place for women and is run by Bev Holt. It too has that wonderful sacred energy and I miss going there soooo very much!
Good morning from the other side of the planet (Germany) where it’s a sunny day. I’m new to the idea of the goddess in me, but I can relate to this truth easily, coming from a big family with lots of strong and special women and having brought three miniature goddesses into this world myself, and am very happy to have found this circle to join.
Reading your new entries (or if there aren’t any new entries, older stuff on your site, there’s still so much to discover) in the morning before my mini-goddesses get up, gives me strength for the day. Thank you for that!
Imagine those Facebook updates from Heaven: “Met Elvis today. He got vegetarian after meeting Linda McCartney. Lost a lot of weight. Never looked this healthy even when he was alive!” This idea of yours made me laugh out loud and wonder what my family members and friends I’ve lost would write.
I can totally relate to your glow about your new big idea! I felt the same when I discovered the thing to do for me was to become a natural healer. It lifts you up and makes you fly, doesn’t it? Can’t wait to hear what your new idea is!
Have a divine day, all you goddesses and gods out there!
Love,
Stef
You never fail to make me cry a little!
Big love!
It’s 4pm[GMT time] on a glorious sunny day [July 29 2010]and I have just read your posting. Leonie, it’s so good to hear how you are dealing with grief and ‘downdays’ I so o o o o want to sign up for one of the e courses. To date I’ve made loads of excuses and have now made a decision to take the plunge. Am also going to organise a visit to a special cousin & family living in Cairns Oz, next Feb/March. while I’m there, would love to visit Posperine and link up with you in some way. perhaps one of your gorgeous goddess circles?
Big squigee hugs to Ostara
Love, Light, Peace & Blessed be
aisha