is that i’ve just sat at my desk
from the time the sun has just risen into the sky
and passed overhead (not that i can see it though, i’m in a concrete tower)
and it is now falling into the mountains
by the time i go home
it will be night time
i’ve sat at my desk and can only observe the cycle of mama earth,
not engage with it or be in it or follow my own natural cycles.
my eyes are not strong eyes… they are red rimmed and cowering behind my glasses from the glow of screens.
i’ve just sat here, staring at my screens, moving bits of text around, without engaging any part of my spirit.
i don’t feel like i’m doing my work in the world.
this is no way to live.
i don’t feel ready to leap yet…
into a natural cycle life of creation and rest with mama gaia and muse
but right now i sit looking out at the fading light
mourning the loss of a day not fully lived
acknowledging the yearning i feel in me.
the time will come.
blessings,
leonie
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Dearest Leonie ~
Oh, do I know how you feel. I spend eight hours a day in an office and while it’s by the beach so I can see the water, I can only see it. How I long to run into the surf and feel the sand between my toes. I have my weekends to live and breathe in the glorious sun and sea air, but it doesn’t seem like enough. Five days working, two days living? That can’t be right. I have to find a better way.
Keep the faith. The day will come when we make that big leap. I’ll be there with you in spirit, cheering you on.
Best Wishes,
Chris
Wow Goddess…
Look at what a similar place we have been in today, from opposite corners of this big blue planet.
Our day is coming Goddess, truly it is.
Dear Leonie
Mmm you are so right.
I feel that way too occasionally… and it is hard.
Soul depleting at times!
But just remember it is only a part of your journey.
A means to enable you to get to the parts you are more passionate about.
And you will (and most days ARE) living your life as you want to be.
One step at a time… and the journey of you life will be colourful and joyous…and fruitful.
Yep…. I know it will. I just know stuff….
*big hug*
Bx
Oh… I meant to say also…
You do too.
“Know stuff”
You just need reminding.
Like we all do at times.
You are brilliant.
Bx
GOREguss pic.s sweetONE!
~yes, we are WilD WarRIOR AnimALS: NOT meant to be Caged.
this is troo——
This is my first time commmenting because what you’ve said touches me deeply. I also sit 9 hours a day surrounded by concrete and it just feels wrong. I feel like I should be working with my hands (besides typing and clicking) and tending to my home and kids.
Wonderful Words!
… the net will appear, whenever you jump…
blessings goddess leonie