I went to equine constellation therapy… which ended up evolving into “just” equine therapy… which was just what was needed. I cried a lot… both happy and sad tears… and was given so much healing and teaching by those horses. It’s still settling into my bones… and I’ll keep working with the lessons… go back and do some more… but I’m feeling grateful to have experienced this healing modality at last. Read more about it.
I packed for my week long health retreat… 90% art supplies, books, essential oils & a small weighted blanket. I even packed my own essential oil diffuser! Who cares about clothes… these are the real necessities in my life.
I returned home, happy to be beside my love again.
I spent the day on a bunch of calls coaching Academy members, hiring & getting ready to launch 2017 workbooks. Using essential oils to cure family ailments and feeling like an oil-dispensing shamaness.
I snuggled with the girls. Beth likes to sit next to Angel and play with her ears… and Starry? Well Starry likes to sit as close to me as possible. I don’t know if you can tell.
Summer is coming. We turn to greet her coming radiance in the garden each afternoon. Each year, my girls’ legs seem impossibly longer after being hidden in winter layers.
I was down and out with round #6785 of sickness… these last six months have been so tough on my poor old immunity and body. I feel sorry for my poor husband… I don’t think he knew what he was getting into with the whole “in sickness and in health” thing… I’ve certainly had enough of it over the last 3 years!
Confucius say: When in doubt, paint outside.
Reading books to her collection of dog toys, small and large. #befflife
(Thermomixed a cup of unsalted peanuts, a third cup of honey, an egg, a tsp bicarb and choc drops. Cook for 10-15min or until golden brown.)
I sketched a little lot.
I reflected on the upcoming US election. I know so many of us were anxious for it all to be over, and also anxious for what the outcome might be.
I want you to know, no matter what happens in the US, I’ll turn up here tomorrow and keep loving you. And we will do what needs to be done. And we will be in the soup of it all together.
A friend once told me something interesting that stayed with me – that volunteering and activism had increased during Bush, and decreased during Obama. Because… complacency, ya know? And I very much pray we don’t need a Trump to inspired the crowds of love in action again, empowered to make a change on a ground roots level because they see their government is not. I wish we all did this each day, no matter our leader.
But that’s not what I wanted to tell you. I wanted to tell you this:
No matter what tomorrow brings, I will be here. So will you. We will be here together. And we will do what needs to be done. Together. Because this world, and we, need it.
We are the ones we’ve been waiting for. We are the knights in shining armour.
A circle of wise women linking hands across the world. A circle of support.
A million angels standing by, ready to bring love and compassion into the world.
In this together.
After that shocking election result… a message to myself.
Starry six years ago today… and today…
I completed one of my Shining Year goals and had a Freakshake from Patissez !!!! OHHMEMMMGEE!
Then, one day I woke up and I was 34.
My love made me a hot chocolate, and I watched endless birthday puppet shows put on by my girls.
I sat by the window and wrote a full list of everything I was grateful for over the last year.
Then I went for a walk down to a cattle paddock and got a bit lost so I trespassed through a golf course to get home again. There’s still adventures to be had. It’s been a hard year with lots of stresses and illnesses and other such calamities. I’m still healing and restoring my inner well. And I’m so grateful for a fresh new year to be born into.
Thank you world, for being the biggest, most beautiful and intense journey. Thank you for all the feelings, the good and the hard.
Thank you for teaching me how to be fully human while still holding the divine in my hand. I’m so lucky to be alive, and so very glad I’m a Leonie.
I reminisced about my unicorn donut from Patissez. You’re welcome guys. You’re welcome.
Starry told me she wanted to take a photo of me… here’s how I’ve spent most of the past few weeks… getting ready for the launch of the 2017 workbooks.
Grocery shopping for refugees, tears in my eyes and a full heart awash with love along each aisle. There’s many things I can’t control in this world, but this I can. Love and love more.
I also celebrated that this beautiful man was born and that I’ve been lucky enough to share so much of that life with him.
Dawsy, I adore your spirit… its gentleness, wisdom, intuition, thoughtfulness, sensitivity, creativity. I also appreciate very much that you are sexy as fuck. I’m pretty sure I’ve never mentioned that before.
Learning how to love with you has been some of the hardest and best work I’ve ever done. We sure were stupid about love when we first started out… it’s a miracle that the thread that tied us together did not break… and has only gone stronger over the years.
We’ve learned, loved, laughed and adventures so much together… you’re my Siamese twin, the wind beneath my wings & my best mate. I’m so grateful our daughters have you as their sage, protective, nurturing Papa Bear.
From the bevy of girls at our home (wife, daughters, dog)… HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
[This photo was taken the moment my husband became a Papa Bear nearly 7 years ago!]
We did it! One of our Shining Year goals this year was to get a trampoline for the kids. We ended up buying a Vuly as a few friends have them and love them. Two hours of installing with Mr D and we’re done. The kids have been bouncing happily ever since… I think Trampy will be our new babysitter! Ha!
This is how we roll. #girlposse
“Mum! I’m giving birf to a baby named Beff!”
Just creamed my pants over a completely ticked off to do list. #satisfaction
As Confucius once said “Misogyny can suck its own dick.”
So one night, I was using up food scraps from the fridge and attempting to make peanut satay sauce… which tasted HORRIFIC. And I started doing a Facebook Live… and ya’ll gave me cooking lessons… and we fixed the sauce together… and it ended up tasting AMAZING. Chris says THANK YOU!
We went for a walk along the lake and recreated a photo we took 14 years ago when we first moved to Canberra, in front of our favourite library.
We were so young when we first moved here… we are both more solid and grounded and our love is so much deeper and stronger.
Being 20 was hard. Being 34 is easier. Don’t get me wrong – there’s harder things to face, but we are bigger, stronger, more resilient.
Giving birth, raising kids, going through chronic illness and family dramas, facing down business challenges… all of that “tests the mettle.”
I just looked up the definition of that and it says: “Mettle is the courage to carry on. If someone wants to “test your mettle,” they want to see if you have the heart to follow through when the going gets tough.” That is such a perfect description of life at times. It wasn’t always pleasant… but I’m grateful for it.
A soul’s strength forged in the flames.
What time is it? Time for mama’s weekly solo retreat to bed to dream and write and fill her well. I’m still working on my 2016 Shining Year workbooks… I tend to start 2017 in a couple of weeks… I know some have started now though because they are super keen.
New hair don’t care. YOU CAN SEE MY CUT MY HAIR LIVE (!!!!!) HERE!!!
SQUEEEEEEEEEE!!!! BOOK DELIVERY!!!!!!!
My new haircut is settling in and behaving itself so well.
Thank you all so much for the congratulations + well-wishes on the birth of beautiful Beth.
I am so grateful. We are settling as gently as we can into our new lives as a family of four.
Beth is a living doll. Evidence:
Right at this moment she’s sound asleep nestled up at my feet in her MamaRoo.
That shiz is the bomb dot com, peeps.
Going into newbornhood second the time around, I knew I needed more arms so I could, you know, eat and pick my nose and function and write and type. I’d heard it was the loveliest pair of robot arms around, so I jumped all over it. Hunky love promptly called it “That Expensive Useless Piece of Crap”. Until we brought Beth home and she was unsettled but fell fast asleep in a couple of seconds in it. And then he renamed it “Thank God I Love It Forever.”
So that’s where we’re at with that!
Let’s talk BIZNESS PEEPS!
I’ve got a great question to answer this week. And I know, know, KNOW that there are going to be so many of you nodding your noggins as you read this one and that you will be able to empathize with what she’s saying.
Here’s the beautiful question I got:
How do I get past the uncomfortable fear of putting myself out there?
I know that people say don’t wait for it to be perfect, but still I wait.
So how do you know when it’s time to make that leap to really putting my stuff and me out there and how do you get past the fear?
Ohhh, let me sit with that for a couple of minutes. Can you feel it? Can you sit with it and breathe it in? Because I’m about to hit you with some CRAZY soul wisdom that will change your everlovin’ LIFE if you can take it in:
It’s not your job to wonder if you’re good enough.
It’s not your job to wonder if you’re ready. It’s not your job to look at other people and compare yourself to them.
Your job is to do the thing that lights you up and that you love doing.
Your job is to love your mission and do anything to make that happen.
Your job is to show up, and share your light, and know that you will be fully protected and loved and alive as you do it because that’s what you’re born to do.
You no longer have to hide behind skirts. You no longer have to hide who you are. You are safe to be here, and what’s more you’re so needed.
What you do in the world is needed.
When you change your perspective from worrying if you’re good enough and instead really focus on the fact that there are people out there who need what you do, then it becomes effortless to reach out because you are so called forth by that passion that you have.
It is not your job to freak out. It is not your job to worry. It is your job to put your actions where your intentions are and to make it happen.
But what happens when you hit a block?
Sometimes, YES – you will hit a big ole block.
As you are creating your amazing life and amazing business, you’ll come up against the hard shit.
You’ll come up against fear, self limiting beliefs, subconscious barriers.
I think this is such an important thing for us to discuss as entrepreneurs and as women who walk through the world.
Because so often we think we are alone in this.
We think we are alone in our stuckness and our blocks and our fears.
And we start thinking that maybe we should just STAY stuck. That it’s a sign that it’s not going to work out and that we should back away from our dreams. Because it’s all so hard and confronting and scary when you are there at the edge.
It’s time for a reframe.
It’s not a sign for you to quit.
It’s not a sign for you to give up on yourself.
It’s not a sign that you aren’t good enough.
All it is – is a magnificent, fantastic opportunity for you to heal your shit.
For you to grow into the next evolution of yourself.
For you to become stronger, smarter, more courageous, and more wildly that brave, powerful spirit that you are.
I’ll give a real life example of me hitting my fears:
I set this big intention to build my company into a seven figure a year business. And I so believe that by doing that we’ll be able to help even more people and we’ll be able to hire even more beautiful support staff and increase our philanthropic efforts as well. I wanna be the next Bill Gates of philanthropy, ya know?
Anyway, I set this big intention and then I hit this really big block and this block felt like real fear, and I kind of fell out of love with that goal. I was like well, I’m not sure if I want to grow that big anymore, and maybe I’ll just stay here and maybe I’ll just hide out for a bit.
And I knew I had to get past that block. It wasn’t my job to doubt my goal.
So I always find it really, really useful to have somebody that is a healer of some kind – whether they’re a coach or a mentor or whether they’re a therapist, intuitive healer, kinesiologist, whatever works for you to work with that stuff – so I ended up talking to a coach and I also went to my spiritual healer and had a session around that.
And what came up was that I was stuck because I was afraid of too many privacy intrusions in my life. I had a subconscious fear that I was afraid of somebody being a crazy nutba, and intruding into my life here and my little family and that sort of stuff.
It was this deeply seated fear, and so I worked through it and healed it. I felt much less freaked out and I also had some actionable steps that I needed to take as well about sharing my personal information.
And once I felt clear and healed, I was ready to jump all over my goal again.
And I went ahead and made it HAPPEN.
But here’s the secret, you don’t actually need to heal ALL of your shit before you make things happen.
You don’t have to wait to have all your shit healed before you get shit done.
All you need to do is heal stuff as it comes up along the way.
You’ll know when something needs healing because you’ll feel like you’ve just hit this big wall, and that’s the time when you bring out all your support to heal it.
And as your business grows, as your abundance grows, you’re going to get much more comfortable with spending money on healing and on those kind of supports – just because you realize that your emotional health and your spiritual support is really an integral part of you being able to step up and shine your light in the world.
I’ve still got stuff that needs healing, but it will get healed in time. I’m not going to be the perfect person right now because hey, I’ve got the rest of my life to heal that stuff. All I need to do is heal what needs healing now, and keep on doing what needs to be done. Doing my work in the world is healing to me.
Doing your work in the world is going to heal you.
It’s such a freaking beautiful feeling that you’re going to get addicted to it, and you’re going to keep turning up every single day to get that rush of: yes, I’m doing what I was born to do. I’m helping the people I was born to help. I’m making it happen no matter what comes up, I’m making it happen.
So make that your mantra.
“I’m making it happen.”
Make that the reversal of all your fears.
You don’t need to focus on whether you’re good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, not weird enough, any of those things. Those are questions that don’t belong to you. They are not yours to consider. And they don’t FREAKING matter!
All that matters is you shining your light, doing the thing you were born to do.
Your job is to be your light. Your job is to be you.
It feels really nice to remember it. So whenever you feel the crazies come on, just make sure that you just go back to that knowing, that truth that lights you up, that love that pulls you forward.
We’re doing another A to another Q. Aka: peeps be asking me this shiz all the time.
So Imagonna answer it here. Just in case you are asking it too.
It’s the question of all ages. The Big Kahuna. The one we all toss and turn about with.
Here’s what our questioning goddess asked:
I would like some tips for how to facilitate figuring out one’s divine purpose. I’m so ready to start my own endeavor, and I know I’m meant to do something. I’m just not sure exactly what it is. I’ve been searching for quite some time now, and I know everything happens when it’s supposed to but I would like a little help coaxing it along.
Awesome. Awesome. So to her and all the other soul purpose wonderers out there: she is so right when she says that it does take time, and it’s all a matter of divine timing. You find it when it finds you.
But we can help that inspiration journey along a tiny bit and give the universe a push in the right direction.
Have you heard that old joke, where the guy is praying, “God, please let me win the lottery, please let me win the lottery…” And then God comes down and says, “Meet me halfway—buy a ticket!”
It’s a bit like that.
So how do we win the soul purpose lottery? We’ve got to buy a ticket! I mean, you’ve got to show up and try things out…
Here’s what I recommend:
My recommendation is for you to play.
Now, when I say play, it may sound counter intuitive to making shit happen. But it’s not, because you’re playing with a goal in mind. You’re playing to find your purpose.
Make a Play-List
Start by writing a list of all the things from your childhood and adulthood that you are really interested in, and include things that you’ve always thought: “OOOOH! That might be interesting to try out!” or “Gosh I’d really love to try that.”
You know—all the things that are on your bucket list of experiences that you want to have.
DON’T censor yourself!
Don’t think, “I can’t put that because my mum hates that,” or “I can’t do that because I can’t make any money at that.”
Because how on earth do you know FO SHO if you don’t try it out?
So start by writing that list and then seeing if you’ve got any matches that you can start trying out right now. Like ASAP.
Like classes you could take, workshops you could dive into, peeps you could align with.
Start playing and seeking.
Whatever sparks an interest for you, seek that out and see if that’s your home.
I mean peeps, this does NOT SUCK AT ALL.
Getting to find your soul purpose is like the greatest fun on earth.
Stop making it a freakin’ chore. Stop making it your Eeyore story.
Write your damn list. And holy dinger, what a great to-do list it IS!
Try out all the things that you love, and see what sticks! That is an awesome job you have to do.
And when you find the one that feels like home, that’s the one that’s your soul’s purpose.
Sometimes it’s a long road home. And that’s okay.
When I left school I was a really determined little shit… And I had no freaking clue what I wanted to do in this world! And so I went to three different universities. I studied so many different subjects and they were all subjects that I thought that I would be interested in.
I studied anthropology.
I studied psychology.
I studied creative writing.
I studied journalism.
I studied economic history.
I studied philosophy (I thought I would be sooooo into it, but I wasn’t.)
I went to art school.
I did summer school in art colleges.
I did illustration courses.
I tried out spiritual modalities like meditation and reiki and shamanic drumming and all that sort of stuff.
It was so much fun exploring all of that. I had a blast!
But the thing that resonated with me happened when I was 21 or 22, and I went to a women’s circle. I stepped foot there and I thought to myself:
This is it. This is what I want to do for the rest of my life. This is home.
And it has been! And what’s more, it has evolved in different ways.
It was such a perfect step into my purpose.
I ran retreats, I ran live workshops, and I did life coaching. I did oracle card readings. Then I started taking things more online. I sold my affirmations and spiritual artwork and prints online. And then I created creativity and spirituality e-courses and meditations. And I wrote books.
And all that evolved too, because I realized that I have a real passion as well for sharing my purpose in the biggest way possible and I worked out how to build my business muscles, and I realized I’d love to help other peeps and hippies with gifts do the same thing. So it all kind of flowed on from there. All in all: it’s been a blast. And I have no idea how it will keep evolving. I just know that it will. And that it will be ding dang glorious.
But I might never have found any of it (or it might have taken MUCH longer) if I hadn’t been so open and trying new things all the time.
Some of the groovy places I’ve landed + loved:
Playing with purpose
It’s a beautiful thing to play around until you find your soul purpose, and it doesn’t suck to play! It’s a great and a glorious and a wonderful thing.
Play isn’t just important to finding your soul’s purpose, either. Play can really be a spiritual practice. It can open up our hearts and our minds, it expands our creativity, it invites new people and things into our soul’s circle.
Sometimes I think we all get a bit too grown up and anal and brown polyester suit-ish and forget how to play… but IT DOESN’T HAVE TO BE LIKE THAT.
It’s your choice, party peeps. Play is ding dang essential to creating a life you can love and grow into.
So I’d really encourage you to try out every little crazy thing that you’ve ever thought of and see what sings to you and see what says: here, here…
Get out there girl! A big, glorious world of joy awaits you!