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“I can change. I can live out my imagination instead of my memory. I can
tie myself to my limitless potential instead of my limiting past.”
~ Stephen Covey
i don’t know
the title just JUMPED out at me
how am i feeling?
i am tired, feet sore and smelly from a hard day on my feet.
i am emotional.
it was my last day at work today with my beautiful workmates.
as of tomorrow i will be working in a different area of the department on promotion for three months.
today was incredibly busy… the launch of the project i’ve been working on for the last six months (http://www.business.gov.au).
then this afternoon, hugging everyone goodbye…
these are people who have become my dearest friends. i work right next to lile~flower, my adventure friend. other friends who have become so close to my heart, my philosophical discussion buddies, my darling pet/pimp daddy alex, my sweet spiritual hippy friends… my boss is the best i have ever had.
it feels surreal.
i love my happy crew…
i was quiet the whole way home in the car.
quiet, teary, just DIGESTING it all.
and i started thinking about what it was i was really feeling, and why…
there was a lot of feelings there. a lot.
not just about work. about life and old loves and things.
why i wanted to hold people. what i was afraid of. the impermanence of everything.
i hitched my knees to my chest, rested them there, as chris drives us. car lights flick by in the darkness. he stops at the fuel station. i look out at the world going by.
what are all these things teaching me?
it’s not about the other people. it’s about what i see of myself in them.
this is for all of them… the ones i love, the ones that make me feel uncomfortable, the ones that break my heart, the ones that challenge me and make me think.
i see parts of myself i love. parts i need to heal. parts i want to grow out of. parts i want to discover.
my friend deb says to me…
you don’t need to worry. you will draw exactly the people you need into your life.
i will. i believe.
i’ll fumble, i’ll fall, i’ll make my errors of judgement.
but they are mine. and i adore them as pieces of my journey.
tomorrow i start my new job.
i have faith, that everything will work out wonderfully.
{and that they already are}
love,
Leonie
