January 2006

what makes me happy…

by Leonie Dawson on January 29, 2006

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~ going on an adventure on saturday morning, and finding these gorgeous pillows on super sale. nothing smells like happy like an adventure and hyper hippy pillows.

~ long conversations on the phone with delicious donna. she shines lightbulbs into my soul even when i am feeling stuck. she ordered me off the phone with: now get into that studio, clean it up, put james taylor on, and paint!
and it worked. eighteen backgrounds painted, eight finito. *insert shining smile of an artist*

~ julia cameron’s “letters to a young artist.” i began reading it last night, and it is straight up remarkable. she says: stop talking about creating art. just CREATE. stop worrying if it is good or bad. put the time in.
between this book, donna, and swirlygirl‘s post about committing to studio time, i feel renewed with a passion of just getting in there, and getting filthy with paint.

i feel like i don’t have to worry anymore about the end result. that the mere act of creation, of painting and discovering is action enough. donna asked me if i liked what i had created today. i said: i’m not sure. but i know i’m on the right path, so i’m gunna keep on following it.


~ all these things, combined with getting rid of our tv, doing dream projects makes me feel like i am flowering inside.

I feel like seeds and shoots are growing inside me… that my inner life and my belly are filling with ideas and projects and clearer desires. explore, navigate, discover, journey.

~ treating myself well. finding out, and revelling in what makes me happy.

~ buying candles from dusk, to illuminate our re~creation room at night. candlelight feels so much better than the loom of the tv.

~ the most scrumptious angel ecard on the planet {via the delicious and wonderful delia}

~ an email from my schoolfriend sonia, finishing with:
“Miss your sunshine and gentle summer rain…”

~ watching the sunset from the front porch

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“I hunger for your sleek laugh and your hands the color of a furious harvest. I want to eat the sunbeams flaring in your beauty.”
~ Pablo Neruda

moment

by Leonie Dawson on January 27, 2006

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i see a photo of a bird, and it makes my heart happy.

as we walked to work, i reached into a tree to gather smooth green nuts with sweet cupping hats. paris told me it was an acorn. i had never known an acorn before.

i gathered a leaf. paris wasn’t sure what it was, but i held it. in the lifts i turned to a workmate, getting him to touch the smooth acorns. he told me the leaf was from a pin oak tree, and that they were common in cities as they were resistant to pollution. in autumn, they will turn a vivid red.

it is so damn nice to know this. to have botany lessons in the morning. to name and love these beautiful things that line my street. i’ve been making everyone touch the acorns all day. i keep being reminded of jeff pitcher’s article about recognising trees and logos. i want to know more trees and less logos.

i talk to my lover in the park, by the gandhi statue, by the serpent goddess statue, in the forest under the trees. and i feel our spirits shine through, and we speak gently. we walk side by side, his presence by my shoulder, his spirit knowing mine.

i eat tofu laksa with him and adam and dave in the city tonight. it’s good just to laugh and talk, and drink bubble tea for the very first time.

Consulting the Oracle

by Leonie Dawson on January 26, 2006

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From journal page today:

I said out loud in my mind – why don’t they see me like others see me?
And a voice inside me answered:
Because they do not have the sight.

The voice was real, it was low and comforting, and rose from above my right shoulder.
So I asked:
Is everything okay?
She replied with certainty:
Everything is okay. It’s better than that. It is wonderfully, splendidly divine.


Just finished watching What the Bleep Do We Know? for the first time.
My mind is doing somersaults and cartwheels and long loving leaps into the arms of the mysterious, beautiful universe.

Change your mind and change your life.

And watch this movie if you haven’t already.

: Life is limitless :

love,
Leonie

“Is it possible that we’re so conditioned to our daily lives, so
conditioned to the way we create our lives, that we buy the idea
that we have no control at all?

We’ve been conditioned to believe that the external world is more
real than the internal world. This new model of science says just the opposite.

It says what’s happening within us will create what’s happening outside of us.”

~ Dr. Joseph Dispenza