healing in love

Always Friends, acrylic watercolour for Lisa Marie. 2004.

“Any feeling, other than peace and love, awakens all of your senses to remind you that there is something blocking the way to your peace.

Peace is the fountain of youth …..let go of your emotional heaviness and connect with the peace in your open heart.

Your Peace is the pathway to the love in you.


From The Daily Guru

this really speaks to me, on so many levels.

i’ve been going through a bit of a change of late.

whenever i find myself unhappy or angry or disgruntled with others, or just life in general…

i see the mirror in front of me.

i am recognising that my own unhappiness is just that – my own unhappiness.

any fudgy feelings about others, I CLAIM AS MY OWN.

they are my own fudgy feelings – those people didn’t cause them.

i created them out of my own experience, vantage point, baggage, and perspective.

yesterday i found myself still with this gnawing hurt about a friendship lost, how angry i still felt about it.

“Each of us makes his own weather,

determines the color of the skies

in the emotional universe which

he inhabits.”

~ Fulton J. Sheen

i was holding on to that hurt. it was forming a part of my emotional landscape.

and this took so much courage for me to do – but i wrote on a piece of paper

“I want this to be healed.”

It wasn’t “I want this friend to know how hurt I am.”

It was ~ I want this to be healed.

That was a big step for me ~ walking OUT of old patterns of warring, scarring with words, unforgiving.

I am a Scorpio ~ a loyal a friend as they come. I would stand in the desert protecting a friend from hungry lions with only piercing eyes as a weapon and a sting in my tail.

I am a Scorpio ~ who doesn’t forget when a certain level of loyalty is not returned. I have a rather black-white view of the world and how it should be. When things are grey, I do not cope. My tendency is to withdraw into my shell, and set bridges aflame to protect myself. Not conducive to a healing journey.

I am a Scorpio yes ~ and I respect and value the Scorpian qualities of me. Those ones which serve this journey in my life ~ the energy, passion, clarity, strength, loyalty.

But that doesn’t mean I have to choose to honour all Scorpian values. I can choose to diminish the strength of those which don’t serve me to create a peaceful, joyous life.

I guess what I’m saying is that we are all predisposed to react a certain way. Whether as an effect of the alignment of the planets at your birth, your upbringing, or your personality.

But I do believe we have a choice on how much we retain that disposition.

If it isn’t worthy of the life you want to live now, why keep it?

It seems to me I’m dragging an awful lot of baggage with me when I don’t need it anymore. I thought I would keep it “just incase” I needed it. My arms are growing tired from it. I long to run, to fly, to soar. To walk on roads too slippery, too rocky, too joyously adventuous to carry much heavy stuff with me.

So I wrote on a piece of paper~

I want this to be healed.

I am giving up my fight to be seen, to be heard, to be RIGHT.

I want this to be healed.

I want to be healed.

I am healing.

In the words of a shampoo commercial…

it won’t happen over night, but it will happen.

the path of healing is long, but i have begun.


just chose myself a Healing with the Angels card.

Guess what chose me?


ha ha ha!

Have just been looking where people come from when they visit me…

and i found the most amusing thing!

someone was searching on ninemsn for:

pics nude cartoon women

hugh jackman screensaver


hot nude cartoon pics

and LeonieLife shows up in the Top Ten listings for ALL these searches!


And, even more amusing…

the searcher came here.

I hope they found what they were looking for 😀


excellent time.
emailed around today:

“am offering free unsolicited advice for the next five minutes if you are interested.”

Had very few replies back, funnily enough.

There’s something about unsolicited advice that makes people a bit queasy 🙂


and i keep giggling over this creative project.

Welcome to my Gratitude Journal

Over on the Simple Abundance forum on the LeonieLife message boards, the ever gorgeous Melissa asked me to share a page from my journal.

I thought I’d share it here too 🙂

This is what my gratitude journal looks like:

Every day I write in it the things I am grateful for about that day.

I aim for five. Some days I write much much more as joys spill forth, other days I barely manage to find the clarity to see two.

Then I usually draw a big heart on a page, and fill it with people I have been thinking of or am grateful for. Sort of like a visual, silent prayer.

It’s not easy to write in it everyday.

But, like good food or stretching, I feel much better for doing it.

How to celebrate Australia Day

Lanyon in winter, 2002. Taken with super crappy $80 digital camera. 🙂

I don’t often write silly/humorous posts…

but Bus Friends and I (forthwith called Team 85) compiled a list yesterday on the bus ride home (where else?) on how to celebrate Australia Day.

1. Get in touch with my “Inner Slack.”

2. Drink beer before 10am.

3. BBQ and burn to a crisper some snags, then possibly consume a few beers. Perhaps incorporate the two.

4. “Drink beer, watch sport on TV and hurl abuse @ minority groups.”

5. Throw beer cans, after consumption of, at TV when Prime Minister makes his National Address.

6. Two fashion words people: Flanellette and Uggs.

7. Behave in otherwise slovenly manner.

8. Scratch and wrangle private parts in public.

9. Say everyone and everything is “UnAustralian”

10. Learn second verse in national anthem. Or google for the words of the rather unpopular and now defunct third verse.

11. Extract last half of your name and add “zza” to make it more Australian. Eg: I shall henceforth be called Lozza.

12. When asked how she would be celebrating Aus Day, one unnamed female bus friend send “Masturbate, after doing some chores. You need to reward yourself somehow. Then of course I’ll need to wash the sheets. It’s always important to self love before you can love another.”

13. Start an insect rehabilitation centre, like Paris. Have a five legged spider named Ralph and a cricket named Some Other Name.

14. Strut around nude.

15. Then strut around nude some more.. in front of the neighbours.