December 2010

A scrap journal for sweet babe’s first year!

by Leonie Dawson on December 30, 2010

Hola my darlinghearts!

And ze next projects I’ve been working on in the studio…

The next scrap journal for Ostara! While she was still swimming in my ocean belly, I made a pregnancy journal and filled it with letters and photos to her…

To see how her first scrap journal ended up, check out this cute video.

It was all full up, and I haven’t had a chance to create a new one, so since she was born, I’ve been collecting cards, writings, notices & little treasures like her newborn beanie & hospital bracelet.

Yesterday I grabbed a nice big new ring binder to start making her a new one.

I’ve been pimping it with a cover of yummy patterned papers (I got a big stack of fairytale themed paper from Big W which I use a boatload) and a photo of us.

And I get asked about this a lot… the metallic writing is done using my favourite favourite favourite…

Pebeo 3d paint in gold & silver. It’s the best for writing, adding stars & special details. Scrumptious!

Then inside I popped in all the bits I’ve collected, including her birth notice and cards.

For items I didn’t want to holepunch… I just popped them with stickytape on paper & put into a clear sheet.

I’ll just keep adding to it now, and I’ve enlisted my sweetie to keep an eye out for special things to pop in there.

So that’s what I’ve been creating… creating makes me a happy girl.

I’ve also got my declutter & cottage-transform bug on this week. I really reaallly feel the need to begin the year from a clear, simple place. (Which reminds me, don’t forget that a round of the Creating Your Goddess Haven ecourse begins Jan 15 – join ze Goddess Circle to join in the fun if you like!)

I’ve been setting up cosy places for reading and playing… buying lots of white and aqua cane wicker baskets to store all my art supplies within an arm’s reach & for Ostara’s toys. It feels so dang gooood.

Hope you are having an art*magic kinda week my love!!!

Big love & gratitude,

“It’s so beautiful! This has to be the Goddess MUST HAVE for the New Year….”

“I can’t wait to get started on mine! You help people change their lives.”

Inside my Creative Goddess Studio

by Leonie Dawson on December 29, 2010

Hola gorgeous goddess!!!

So I’ve been holed up in my studio creating…

and by “holed up” I mean… sneaking in ten minutes here and there where I can… oh look! Ostara is settled! I’m just going to sneeeeeeeeak off! Oh hi crawling baby! You want more cuddles? Okay! You’re off again! Yay! Create! Oh! You’re baaack again! Hello!

Multiplied by 1000. Also distracted by:

  • a much needed nap (for two)
  • a trip to BigDubs (aka Big W -anyone else call it that?) for Much Needed Stationery Supplies. And more large salad bowls. I eat every single meal out of a big bowl. It’s my thang.
  • an afternoon date with Starry – a stroll up the street to visit Akiah, persuade self I need Diana Cooper’s 2012 meditation CD. Also go bookshelf hunting. I adore bookshelf hunting!

So that’s what “holed up in my studio” means for this mama. Life is either more balanced or bonkers, depending on how I feel in that particular moment. Hee hee!

Anywaysies… the important part is the creating!

I did get to the studio!!!

YAY!

So project #1 I’ve been working on is THE FOLDER OF LEONIE.

It’s like a creating, dreaming & journalling centre for me.

One I can tote around me wherever I go.

I love love love using ring binders & turning them into scrap journals. I made a video of my pregnancy scrap journal here.

I decorated the cover with some turquoise swirly contact paper, a print of one of my own paintings & a buffalo postcard from RedBubble (I’m newly addicted to them… have you checked out the amazing artists on there??). I used 3d metallic paint to put a queen’s crown on my goddess girl to remind me of my own sovereignty & queen. And the buffalo? I feel so safe and guided seeing my beloved buffalo on there. They are my sacred totem, and I get teary whenever I see them.

Inside, I’ve got three sections.

The first is a bunch of looseleaf ruled paper.

I keep notes from books on aromatherapy & herbs & nutrition.

I write notes from acupuncture & naturopathy & healing appointments.

And I also journal, write lists & notes & dreams I’ve had… I talk about the hard parts & I also write letters to myself from the wise older woman inside me.

Beautiful hand modelling by Miss Ostara Light. She has SUCH a gift, no?

AND at face modelling too.

Okay, baby distracted.

The next part are blank white pages that I draw with ink pen…

on this page I’m working on a Goddess Guidebook redesign. (OOOHEY!)

And the third part is my own 2011 Creating my Goddess Year workbook that I’m filling out.

I’ve also got my 2010 one in there all filled out… it’s really lovely to look back at it & see what blossomed into fruition!

And here’s a photo of my very full studio desk… filled with my projects. At the moment my long studio desk is being shared by my love & me. He’s studying Psychology & is really into zen pictures… thus the brain puzzle & balancing stone picture.

(He’s way way cute!)

AND here’s the two pens I constantly keep in one of the pockets of my Folder of Leonie.

The Papermate 4 ball (in the special colours edition: aqua, fuscia, lime & purple) & Uniball eye waterproof ink pen.

HURRAH!

Okay my darlinghearts…

So that’s my Folder of Leonie.

I so adore it… my own little sanctuary & haven. I think I’ll add a section for inspiring photos as well.

I think I’m going to be filling out my workbook through January as well as I get clarity about what I’m wanting.

Oh! And if you are filling out your 2011 workbook, I’d love to feature some pics of your workbook pages – just email me! And if you’ve got your own Folder, I would soooo love to see it!!!

Have an absolooodely precious day my love… I hope you can get some studio moments today!!!

Letter to my new mama self

by Leonie Dawson on December 28, 2010


oh.my.goddess. remember when ostara was SO little?

Hola gorgeous Goddesses!

Truth: Writing Ostara’s birth story was big.
Truth: Sharing it was big.
The Reason? I felt, and still feel responsible for, and protective over maidens and pregnacious mamas.

I didn’t want it to be a scary birth story.

See… The thing is, when I was pregnacious, I was so afraid of hearing birth stories that weren’t empowering or lovely. I really needed to claim a space in my head and heart where birth wasn’t a scary thing. I needed to fill up on good stories, on ecstatic stories, I needed to know there was a possibility that birth wasn’t going to be something awful for me to endure. I needed to turn it around and make it my own, and make it sacred.

So many times, I felt like mamas wanted to tell me their kinda scary birth stories, and I didn’t want to listen. And I know now, those beautiful women were trying to help too. All of our stories are sacred. Even those birth initiations that take time to heal and integrate and come to peace with.

It took me time to heal from mine, emotionally, physically, soulfully. I don’t know why that surprised me, but it did. My vajayjay had stitches, I had haemerroids, and I was still in shock about going to labour land and being a birthing Buddha. And if I could go back, I would say:

Sweet Leonie, it’s all going to be okay, you are doing so well, be gentle my darlingest, you are in soul transformation.

Nobody can take this time or path or journey away from you, not even your own sweet mama who said “If I could do this for you Leonie, I would. I know it is hard.” Nobody can do your birth for you, nobody can take away those intense days of being a new mama and having a newborn. They can help, but it’s your path to walk. And I know that is as scary as hell and sometimes you want to run away just to remember who you were when your breath was your own… But you will stay. And your soul will be reborn. And you will be carved into your best self.

I can promise you this, my beautiful Leonie. Each moment will pass. Especially the hard ones. You will forget about them the day after, or the day after that. But the good moments? They will dance and glow in your spirit forever. The first time you can soothe your daughter with rocking and soft singing. When her eyes light up to see you. When everything begins to make sense again.

Yes, things are different now. And so are you. And it’s okay to grieve that. It’s absolutely okay to feel sad and longing for your days just being an artist and creator goddess. Because, ding dang they really were special days.

And now there are new kinds of special days. They are bigger and they call on more of you, but you are holding gold. The gold of a child.

All you need to do my love is the best you can.

I love you I love you I love you.

More and more I realise, we need to hold, support, uplift and take care of our new mamas. They are doing the big work.

And when I’m up at three a.m., lost and dishevelled, may I know there is an older, wiser me, as well as legions of mama goddesses around the world sending me so.much.love.and.understanding.

Wherever you are at… you are loved, you are supported, you are held.

P.S. More to come this week. Hope you are having a beautiful celebration season. I’m hanging out in the studio, having some Leonie time, playing in my 2011 workbook, making a big folder of journal pages & my workbook & some worksheets that I call the Folder of Leonie, collaging & making sanctuaries. Making some space for a new year. Oh new year, you are so fresh and holy! Thank you thank you thank you!